Spanked

We were on our way home from the french town where we had a lovely lunch. We were slowly walking back to our gorgeous hotel. As we walked through a park we were enjoying some delicious banter and I challenged him by saying something naughty, I cant remember exactly what it was I said but the next thing I knew he was sitting on a bench and I was draped over his lap and he pushed my skirt up, not bothered by the fact that we were in public in broad daylight. As my skirt was pushed up he spanked my bottom pretty hard and it made me go all warm and I loved it. It made me so incredibly turned on it had moistened my knickers and he took full advantage of that when we got back to the hotel. It was tres tres delicious!!!

Love
His Angel
xxx

Vision

I have visions of his hands in my hair, I dont know which one of us enjoys it more when he wraps my hair around his hand and makes me suck his cock. I like seeing his face, the mixture of pure love and lust is such an aphrodisiac.

Its also my throat, he kisses me so tenderly with his hands around my face and his hand touching my throat with such love but I could feel the strength of his hand and it made me want him instantly.....

Miss you my Love, so very much.

Your Angel
xxx

Away

He is away for a couple of days doing boys things and this morning on the phone he told me to wear white underwear for the few days that he is gone. He knows why he is asking that and I know it too. He needs to know that I will be a good girl.....his good girl and I will because I love him so very much.....

I will be getting dressed now, in virginal white, as my Man asked me to do.

Have a great day everyone.

Love

His Angel
xxx

Long time

Its a long time since I last wrote here and a lot has happened. Things are looking so much more positive and we are so much stronger as a result.
How is it possible to be both in our forties (though I keep trying to tell people I am at least 10 years younger than that lol) and to feel like teenagers when we make love, when we make out and when we play....

Is it because we have more knowledge now of what we dont want and how we treasure what we do have, that makes it so special? I dont really know, all I do know is that he makes me feel like no other man ever has, I crave him so much in so many ways. Yesterday I stood in my bedroom and he had his jeans on and his back was naked and all I could do was kiss and stroke his back, I am so incredibly in love with this man.

We are enjoying our moments together, whether its cooking, snuggling, walking or arguing with teens at home, we even do that well together. My only regret right now is to not have had a child with him. He is a fantastic Dad and we would have had a beautiful baby together, I cant help myself at the moment to find there are babies everywhere and they look sooooo cute but I am being sensible because that really is the last thing we would be need right now.....still I know my age and I know this is more than likely not going to happen and you know what we always want........the impossible....!!

For now I am incredibly blessed and feel very loved and love fiercely in return. I may even come back to write more smut..........that is if anybody would like to read it?

Love

His Angel
xxx

Christmas

I am getting a little excited. It will be the first time ever we will be having a Christmas day, it does even involve teens at my house and I am so very much looking forward to it. I have been assigned a job of chopping vegetables in the kitchen and generally helping out, does that mean I can wear something sexy and keep trying to entice him whilst he is cooking the Christmas dinner.....????

Merry Christmas my Love, I do love you so very very much and I truly hope you like your presents this year!!!!

Your Angel

xxx

Feelings

I have not written here for a long time but in the meantime so much has happened. I am very hopeful for the future but there are 2 things that are really worrying me. I want him to spend nights with me on a regular basis, as we can not share a house together for another while I am ok with that, although I dont like living on my own, I love being in a proper relationship with someone but we have to take it slow and I understand that. What I dont understand is why he will not spend any nights with me when there are occasions now that he can. How can he claim to love me as much as he does yet prefer to sleep alone when he has opportunities to be with me?

I still yearn so much to be included in his life and he will know what I mean by that, I dont want to give too many details away here but it does really hurt when I am still after so long being separated from the 2 people he loves the most. I know he says he has his reasons and I understand them a little but my heart is screaming to be taken out of the secret closet. I am trying to be patient and give him time but its getting harder and harder and I really dont want to give up on us. I love him more than I have ever loved anyone, I just wish he would accept me into his life. To me this is not how a relationship is supposed to be. I have made calculated decisions on opening my life to him completely and it hurts that he will not do the same.....maybe I should have called the title patience but maybe I am just running out of that.

Hopefully a more sunny post next time but this was weighing heavy on my chest and I needed to get it off.........

Have a wonderful weekend everone.

Love

His Angel
xxx

My turn to...

Its my turn at the moment to look after my Sweet Love. He came over last night and I had made us some dinner. He is not looking after himself properly because he has so much on his plate. He was looking so shattered, his eyes all red and puffy. He also smoked in the day, I could tell and that alone tells me how stressed he is. I am frustrated because there is so little that I can do for him. So all I do is make sure he eats when he comes around here and create a warm welcome where he can just relax and have some peace with lots of cuddles and love and no demands.....

Its does put to me that there has to be a symbiosis, he often looks after me and does such a great job. Now its my turn. He needs my support, how ever small. I like that I can look after him a little bit. I am on my way now to get some ingredients for dinner again tonight and I find myself looking for things he will love eating.

I love you Hunny, so very much and it will get easier I promise you!!!

Your Angel
xxx