My turn to...

Its my turn at the moment to look after my Sweet Love. He came over last night and I had made us some dinner. He is not looking after himself properly because he has so much on his plate. He was looking so shattered, his eyes all red and puffy. He also smoked in the day, I could tell and that alone tells me how stressed he is. I am frustrated because there is so little that I can do for him. So all I do is make sure he eats when he comes around here and create a warm welcome where he can just relax and have some peace with lots of cuddles and love and no demands.....

Its does put to me that there has to be a symbiosis, he often looks after me and does such a great job. Now its my turn. He needs my support, how ever small. I like that I can look after him a little bit. I am on my way now to get some ingredients for dinner again tonight and I find myself looking for things he will love eating.

I love you Hunny, so very much and it will get easier I promise you!!!

Your Angel
xxx

Doctor Fetish

Thinking about this subject. I dont have just any doctor fetish, my doctor fetish includes him, my Lover, my other half. As you have all read I have not been terribly well this week and he has been keeping an eye on me. Making sure I take all of the medication, nagging me about drinking and eating on time but for me one of those magical moments happened when I was sitting on his lap in my conservatory.

I was having a cuddle with him and he was quietly talking to me. He pinched the skin on my arm and my hand and declared I had not been drinking enough, its moments like that when I melt and I realise what a lucky girl I am to have him in my life. I have fantasies about him checking me over completely, I love his caring nature and the way his voice changes when he tells me to do something. He makes me do things I would normally say no to. He has the ability to make me quiver in the most delicious way. He says he has not even started yet, I cant wait. So many fantasies to tell him about and ask him about. I have seen the GP 3x times now over the last 2 weeks and its for certain, its only him that makes my heart beat faster.......every time.

I love you my Sweet.

Your Angel
xxx

Missing him

Its so lovely to hear his voice on the phone. He had a good day and that makes me really happy. We are missing each other but it wont be long. Come home soon my Love, in the meantime I am being a very good girl.....

Love

His Angel
xxx

One night

I know he is only gone for 2 days and one night but I am missing him. I have not been terribly well this week and I need extra cuddles. The thing is he needs downtime too. He does not often get times where he is together with the lads and do boy things. Stuff that us women roll our eyes at lol.....

As for tomorrow, I am hoping he will stay over, I am soooo hoping he will stay over. The invitation is there and I know its possible too. Will he or wont he....? All I want is for him to be here and say "Baby its bedtime, go and get ready", then snuggle together and sleep next to him. I love him so incrediby much. I know he is still holding out, still waiting for that right moment to come out and say to the world how important I am to him. I truly hope it wont be too long because its so hard to be hidden like this. I still dont think he understands how much I struggle with that.

He has made some massive changes and even he commented on how much better it makes things for our relationship. I love seeing his car from my kitchen window. I love hiding the key for him so he can let himself in to come and cuddle me in bed. When I was not feeling well, he cooked, cleaned up and then ran me a bath, undressed me, read a magazine to me, wrapped me in a towel and put me to bed, tucked me in and lovingly kissed me. Once he realised I did not want him to go he became more stern with me. Daddy is telling you, you need sleep more than anything. Be Daddy's good little girl please......

Night night Daddy, I hope you sleep well and please come stay round here tomorrow evening.

I love you

His Angel
xxx

Making Love

We had been making love for hours, I am such a lucky girl with an incredible giving lover and we had more or less worn each other out. We were so hungry for each other, the kisses were loving and claiming, I lost count of the amount of times he said "Mine...". I adore it when he says that, so much!!!

So we decided to snuggle, I was laying on his left hand side, curled up on his chest, warm and cozy and we both dozed off and it was gorgeous. We spend so few nights together that just laying there and basking in his glow to me is still so special. We must have slept for nearly an hour and we both stirred, now giving the amount of times he had made love to me and fucked me too....I thought I had completely depleted him but he never fails to surprise me.....in one swift movement and a cuddle, our lips found each other again and I could feel him being hard underneath my leg. He pulled me onto him and entered me again at the same time. It felt so incredibly good.....like I said I really am the luckiest girl. We made out again, a mixture of making love passionately and holding my hips and fucking me whilst looking deep into my eyes. He is making me his again, His Angel.........I dont think I ever went away. He knows that now too.

After we had come downstairs and made something to eat together he completely blew me away again with a new name I may be allowed to call him sometimes but thats entirely for another post, another day.....

Love

His Angel
xxx

Guilt

My eyes are so sore and puffy this morning, I know its a result from crying for hours last night. We were together and had some very difficult conversations. He needs to get things of his chest and I need to hear them too but the guilt that comes with that is so overwhelming.

We are still so wrapped up in the past month, its so hard sometimes to let go because it scared us so incredibly much and the thing we both very much agree on is to never let it get to that point again. Communication, how ever hard, is the key. Our relationship is deepening again but I crave to get that intimacy back. I love him so deeply, like I have never loved any man before. It scares me and fills my heart with such joy at the same time.

I was trying to explain something to him last night but the phone rang right at that crucial moment. I wanted to explain how I got to that point, that I did not think I deserved to be loved, that I did not feel very loved anymore and that I accepted anything at that point. It was a very low point indeed. Its opened my eyes and even though my heart is heavy today and I can hardly open my eyes from crying so much I do know today that I am loved and that I love him so much in return and thats a beautiful start....

Maybe by writing this here today I can try and get past it somehow, I need to in order to move on, its too damaging to keep feeling what I am feeling and I need to use that energy to show him how much I love him and I want a future with him...

Love

His Angel

xxx

Missing

Does he have any idea how much I crave to have him in my mouth? To devour him with my lips, my tongue, to swirl my tongue around his thickness, to taste him. I adore seeing the look on his face, that intense look in watching his baby worshipping his cock. Thats what I do you see. I have never enjoyed any man like I enjoy him.

For me it gets even better when he wraps his hands around my face and pushes my head really gently. I adore it when he wraps my long hair around his fists and holds me so gently whilst I loose myself in him. My Love please dont make me wait too much longer???

Love

His Angel
xxx